forgive & move on
it’s monday and this morning was full of thunderstorms leaving me in bed until 9am — time to read more of my chosen book: 50 shades of grey. i put it on hold at the local public library and forgot about it and was nicely surprised a few days ago to receive email it was waiting for me. i am captivated, inspired and turned on. i desire a book like this to be written where a woman dominates a man in such ways — perhaps i have the material for that book in my experiences already…just have to wrap my head around my long time dream of writing a book and …begin writing.
matt and i had a break through weekend, talking openly — agreeing forgiveness is in order for my past actions. seeing more clearly the faithful & honest wife i am now …not the crazy & wild teenager, young woman and new wife i used to be. it’s been years since i’ve been with another man — and i am ready for more. during these years of my male play hiatus, matt has enjoyed several experiences with other man, both with me and alone. my time has come and THANKS to long time fan & cyber friend, KK — we are going to film my debut with another man ….for his custom video. i am letting matt choose the man. the first he thought of caught me off guard and after mulling it over in my mind, i thought OK, i can do …him. but then this weekend matt came up with another man in mind and i was more quick to think, YES, he’s the one. matt and i will read this custom script together before presenting the experience to this other guy and we will go from there.
now tonight, 50 shades has inspired me to tie my man up and torture him tonight!!!
the full moon energy and my horniness is also leading me in that direction and matt is obliging — perhaps because of the deep penetrating sex we had saturday night….leading us to feel closer, something we have both been yearning – as husband and wife.
communication becomes challenging spending so many years, months, days and hours together — we know how to push each others buttons, at times wonder if the buttons will lead us apart from one another as our heartfelt feelings get lost in the camaraderie. and then we manage to re-connect and get grounded again in our ultimate desires and goals.
so, tonight is your night Jeff.
OH and my kinky mind is thinking my man will be nicely turned on after the glove tickling teasing video ….and he will be READY to receive a STRIKE ANYWHERE HANDJOB!!